The Sunday Blues still plagues me.  Even though I was "supposed" to be off work tomorrow, I decided to change it to Tuesday and then I wanted to be off again on Thursday, so at least it will be a short week for me. 

Jason has a dentist appointment on Tuesday and I'm going to try to go and see my doctor again on Thursday.  Something is wrong with me, but nobody seems to be able to tell me what that is.  So I'll just keep going back until they figure it out.  My heart keeps racing for no reason.  I could be just sitting and watching TV and my heart will start POUNDING as if I'm running.  The next time it happens, I'm just going to go to the emergency room, cause that just CAN'T be good.

Every time I go to the doctor's office they give me the EKG or something and nothing shows up.  I'm one of the more "healthier" chunky chicks apparently.

But I'll get it all figured out soon.

Here's the thing, I've taken great pains in trying to get myself ready for the week on Sundays and trying not to procrastinate until the last minute has always been a chore for me.  Right now, I'm washing the kids clothes and my clothes.  (I've even been going the extra mile and hanging them up instead of just leaving them in the laundry room!)  I'm trying to keep the house clean and all the clothes washed so they won't pile up on us again.  It had taken me almost a MONTH to get us caught up!  I should've just went to the laundromat, but who has money for that?!?!

Anyway, I'm about to go and wash and braid the girl's hair for this week.  Felicia gets her hair washed every two weeks, but Sam needs her hair washed every single week!  She has soooo much hair and the texture of it helps keep dandruff, so if I miss a week, we are in trouble!

My only other problem with being a procrastinator and all the things that I have to do around the house, is that I've been spending soooooo much time online. 

I'm on Myspace, Facebook, and Tagged and not to mention I've been texting and IMing EVERYBODY!!  It's crazy how much time I spend with technology!   In doing so, I've met several new friemds and some seriously weird guys who are dead set on "meeting me soon".  Wow. 

I was chatting with this guy named LW earlier and he just kept going on and on about he he's never done this before but how my "beauty captured him".  That was nice.  But after a while it got kinda boring.  He started to get into wanting to go out and stuff.  Now, mind you, on ALL of these sites I make it plain and clear that I'm married, but they just don't seem to care anymore.  But there are some guys and girls that are out there just looking for someone to talk too and I was told that I have a "Dear Abby" kinda face, and  that's why they talk to me.  Whatever.  I like the conversations.  Except when they start to turn nasty and more often then not, they do.

Even from some of the women.  I had this one lady coming after me because apparently my profile had been accidentally set to "bisexual", so she was coming at me  hard!  It was kinda funny and scary all at the same time!  She was from Washington State (I think), so I know she wouldn't be comimg to stalk me any time soon!

Right now, Karl and I are both trying to get the house in order for the week.  But I just want to lay around and read my book all day.  The cramps are just not giving up. But it feels like Aunt Flo will be gone before the end of the day.  I love my 3 day visits, but the only problem is, they are ONLY 22 days apart, so that heifer will be back before we know it!  DAMMIT.

I don't think the fact that I have been talking to other guys is bothering Karl at all since I'm still being attentive to his needs.  I think he has an issue with me being online, no matter who I'm talking to,  when I'm on there for long periods of time, but when he's around, I try to stay off. 

I never really talk bad about our marriage because there's really nothing bad about it.  I know you all know how Karl and I feel about each other and all the things he does for me.  Sometimes I do find myself questioning whether or not it's just for the convenience of it all.  Does he really love me?  Am I bored with it?  What can I do to light a fire in our relationship?  Has the fire fizzled or is it just that I haven't been fanning the flames?  These are just some of the questions that I've been asking myself.  There's nothing wrong with our relationship, or is that something I'm just telling myself?  Why are other guys catching my attention more easily now?  Why can't I just focus on him like I used to?  What is wrong with me?  Why do I feel like such a bad person for asking these questions?  I don't know.  But I'm sure like a lot of other things, the answers will reveal themselves. 

Okay, enough of that. 

I have to go finish the clothes and get the the girls ready for next week.  I'm thinking about going back to swim aerobics next week too, if they have some openings.  I took a hiatus from that too.  For shame!!  But I'm going back.  I need to do something just to keep my energy up!

Well, I'm sure I'll be back sometime tonight.  Talk to you again soon!

Well, Kris, my opinion about the racing heart issue is that it might be stress-related. It's odd, though, that test results have come up clean... Maybe try relaxing more? I honestly don't know...

Where you and Karl are concerned, I think every couple asks themselves the questions you're asking, hon. Maybe if you and Karl could spend more time alone, that might help ease those worries - for both of you. Just a thought...

I'm doing a show in just over an hour, so I have to get ready, but I wish you love, joy, and a great week, my friend. Take care, sweetness; you're not alone....

Hey Kris, just dropping by to wish you a great weekend, hon. Hope to see you blogging again soon...

Hey Kris, where'd ya go? Hope you have a great day and a great week, my friend...

Hey gorgeous, just dropping by to say hi and wish you a great weekend. Hope you're okay, darlin... Miss you...

Hey darlin, just droppin by to say hi and wish you a great week.

Hey Kris, just popping in to say hi and let you know I'm thinking about you...

KRIS? WHERE ARE YOU?